Always there were more questions than answers. What do I have, I’d ask the doctor. Well, I’m not sure he’d replied. It doesn’t have a name he’d added. If this was happening ten years from now, he mused, the tests would be better, we’d know so much more. Okay was the only response I could think of.
Eighteen months ago, in the middle of the night, a big mystery began in my left thigh. I woke from a deep sleep in pain, my left leg spasming. By morning, I could barely put weight on that leg.
Fast forward to today. I’m on the other side of that mystery that took eight months to diagnose. I’m past the hours long treatments in an infusion center where the cocktail dripping into my veins was far less potent than what patients all around me were receiving. The constant burning is gone. I’m still numb, but I’m used to that now. My leg is still a little unreliable, but I’m used to that too.
All along I said to my doctors that there were things I’d willingly give up… downhill skiing, high heels, certain exercises in the strength training classes I love to attend. But… not tennis. Getting back onto the court has been a goal from the moment my leg became a problem.
I’m not an athlete. But I can play tennis well enough to have an enjoyable game with friends, to get a good workout, and to work up a good sweat. For me there has always been something deeply satisfying about getting out and whacking the ball at the end of a long work day. And yesterday, eighteen months later that is just what I did. Was I scared? Yup. I wondered if I would be able to move with any confidence. (I also wondered if I’d even remember how to hit the ball!)
It was a perfect afternoon. The sun was shining. The air was warm but not hot. The tennis pro who’s known me for years was not just patient, he was encouraging and even happily surprised at times by what I could do. I spent an hour on the court hitting balls over the net and sometimes into the net. I moved side to side on the base line practicing forehands and backhands. There was lots I didn’t attempt on this first time back on the court, but I was sweaty and tired and totally exhilarated at the end of that hour. My leg and I did it and this morning I’m still smiling.
I am so happy for you! What a relief to be able to have this back in your life!
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A wonderful milestone to pass. I’m glad you were back on the court today! We take our health for granted, don’t we?
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So happy for you — I feel the same way about running. I can’t imagine not having it in my life. So happy for you — thank you for letting us celebrate with you.
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Thank you Clare. It felt like a huge milestone in this leg journey of mine.
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Congratulations on getting back out there!! I appreciate reading about your positivity.
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What a positive slice. Your enthusiasm to get on the court showed in the piece. Glad you made it! Your slice is encouraging.
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I’m thrilled you reached this important milestone in your recovery, Lisa. WOO HOO! Sounds like the perfect afternoon to play tennis too.
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It WAS a perfect afternoon. But even if it had been oppressively humid and overcast I think I would have been just as thrilled to be out there.
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What great news! Congratulations and may your next tennis ventures be equally satisfying! The calm with which you describe your pain and the diagnostic process is striking. While you are writing from the other side of this long ordeal, you only hint at what those many months must have been like. This makes your triumph on the tennis court all the more exciting and worthy of celebration.
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CONGRATULATIONS!! I can only imagine how long and stressful those months were! This slice gives us just enough background story to truly appreciate the wonder and appreciation of your afternoon of tennis! Again, congratulations and here’s to more afternoons doing what you love! Thanks for sharing!
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I love tennis but haven’t played in a quite a while! This post is the reminder to get the kids out there again.
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